About 18 months ago I wrote the following prayer for my friend George. He’s had an illness that the doctors have not been able to cure, and today, George went into hospice care.
He is one of the finest men I’ve ever known, and this recent news about his health hit me hard. George is strong in his faith and has served as an anchor and inspiration for a lot of guys. I don’t understand why this is happening to him. But God is sovereign, and I have no right to question his plan.
When I wrote the prayer below, I told George that I was describing how I thought I would act if his illness happened to me. Hopefully, you can relate.
Lord, I’m a little scared right now. No, that’s not true. I’m really scared. Scared for a couple reasons.
First, I’m scared because nobody seems to know what’s going on with my health. Despite modern technology and smart doctors, a diagnosis of what’s causing problems for me isn’t obvious. Second, I’m scared because I don’t know if I have enough faith to rely on you during this time.
I’m used to being in control, and the thought of completely relying on you is difficult. For many years I’ve talked and prayed about “giving you control.” Now, when I’m being put to the test, I’m not sure I’ll do what I’ve told others to do…”Let Go and Let God.” I know you are in control. Deep down, I just know. It’s embedded in my spiritual DNA. But it’s still challenging to trust you completely.
So, I’m simply asking for a couple things.
First, I ask that during this time I would trust You. Not just say the words but really trust that your ways are perfect. Second, I’m praying that my doctors will determine what’s going on with my health and that with your guiding hand, a cure will follow quickly. And third, I pray that others would see Christ through me during this time.
You are sovereign, Lord. Give me faith. Give me courage. Give me confidence. Give me peace that only comes from you. Thanks.
George, I love you, man. Someday we will see each other again.